Day 7

 I guess we have to keep living life?

In our little 20-person circles?

More and more people seem to be crawling out from their safe hiding places and tentatively checking in on everyone else.  We're all so worried and sad.  I'm mad.

And everything that's going to happen is going to happen to us all now.  And I'm going to blame every single bit of it on the people who were awful - even the stupid ones.  I don't have any patience for willful ignorance.  I'm mad that the ignorance was SO LOUD and now we're all going to have to deal with it.

When it was going to be so easy to not have to deal with it. Why are people so easily conned?  I truly do not understand.  

So I guess where I'm at now is the anger phase?

And still planning planning planning.  We watched Inside Out 2 on Friday - looking for something to distract us.  I'm 100% being driven by the anxiety character - trying to keep me safe from possible bad futures.  So I spin and spin in my plans.

I made cookies today.  I planned a party for Hadrian.  Working was...difficult.  I felt adrift.  I went to lunch with my friend Melissa.  She is amazing.  She designs and makes leather goods - these gorgeously proportioned bags and kits and covers and sacks.  I don't know how she can get the idea and then make that idea with her own hands.  

We talked about the end of America and how to get her designs for sale at the ski resorts.  This is life in Nov 2024.