Both kids had a chance to sleep over at the grandparent's new house last weekend and basically it's all they talk about right now. While they were gone, Paul and I kind of stayed in our regular routine - which I know sounds boring, but it was kind of nice to do the same things, just slightly less harried and slightly more quiet. We still got our Friday Night Costa Vida Salads (a habit/tradition that came out of the pandemic), watched a documentary, read, fell asleep. In the morning we did some yardwork, went on a walk (to get some Boba Tea from University Place), took naps, read books. I think if there was a hierarchy of who had the best weekend there it was #1 - obviously the boys, #2 - us, #3 - my exhausted parents. We thank them for their sacrifice.
Wednesday, May 12, 2021
Sunday, May 2, 2021
Got Hadrian's passport renewed. It came yesterday. Apparently he's now "Adrian". So....that's...not going to work out for us. Now we have to figure out how to get that fixed. I hope we can...easily.
Also please admire his whale picture with washi tape ocean.
Ansel is solidly in a "talk like a baby" phase. It's...weird?
Today we went on a walk, just us four, around the neighborhood. We played Hadrian's favorite game, "Guess the Animal" (basically a form of 20 questions) as we looped around some roads they'd never been on before. Lovely, perfect day for it. And fun to just talk with them.
I had a long weekend and I'm in denial about going back to work tomorrow. I'm worried that's maybe not a good sign about my work? Or maybe it's because I had such a nice time being with family.
This summer, our little school the boys go to has had to increase their summer camp prices to more than double the regular school-year prices. It would mean, for both boys to go over the summer, about $2880/mo. Which we just won't be able to do. So we're going to wade into the world of 30 hr/week nannies. It's a little intimidating to try and figure out how to post an ad and interview and hire someone. But being by two very large universities, I think we'll have a good pool of student candidates? I'm not sure. It will be...interesting.
Thursday, April 29, 2021
|Made this banner to celebrate my parents' full vaccination, but taped the second word on backwards. We're been trotting out the Noitaniccav banner for our own vaccination milestones too.|
It will soon be the best month of the year. The month in which I basically get two parties for myself, approximately only one week apart. And I get to plant stuff. This year I think we're getting 9-13 different kinds of tomatoes. Just for fun.
Yesterday (for me) and today (for Paul), we are now, as best a family can be, officially vaccinated against COVID-19. The first thing I did was restart my Orange Theory membership. It was weird to be back in that little gym - but I was so glad that I wasn't so scared anymore. Some things were different, but most was the same. I liked seeing the old couple I remembered and feeling how the treadmills are still awesome (they have some kind of...bouncy give? to them that is really satisfying). I absolutely lost basically...all...the tiny gains in upper body strength I had made last-last winter though. I did one bicep curl on the weight I remembered using before and literally laughed out loud. Oh well. That's all to be expected. Point is, I burned 550 calories in an hour and today I can't lift my arms over my head and I'm so happy about it.
Paul is so excited to go back to the UVU gym too. Apparently their treadmills have screens that make it look like you're running through various places in Germany/England/Spain/France/Switzerland. He's excited to "travel" again.
On the information sheet I had to fill out to get my membership going again, it asked me, "When were you in your best physical condition?" For me it had to be senior year in college when I was on the Ballroom Team (not the fancy one. The "locally-touring" one). I was dancing 1-2 hours every day and just walking to-from classes and my apartment. I wasn't "working out" at all. I've never been very interested in "working out" actually. Much better if it's built into my day - living in Boston without a car, working and going to school on a sprawling campus, only having bikes in Europe. I miss living in places designed to make simple built-in healthy things the norm. It's one of the main reasons we looked in this very particular neighborhood actually. On the face of it, it's not any different than any other place. But it's a mile away on connected sidewalks to quite a lot of things. Parks, library, two very nice mall/commercial/entertainment complexes, schools, a ton of restaurants, Trader Joes... I hope we can figure out how to take advantage of that more.
What else....mmm. We think we finally have enough saved to repipe our house. We're getting quotes this week on that. It will be a huge pain but also a huge relief to just get it over with.
We're finally going to Oregon again - after the pandemic shut down our UVU Field Trip in 2020. In a way, this may be better because we won't have to worry about a bunch of students too. On this first return, I think it's good to just be us. We've rented a little one bedroom house by Bastendorff Beach and we'll road trip there and back. I'm looking forward to it so much.
Oh and we also did our first mini family trip over a long weekend a couple weeks ago when we were in-between vaccinations. We went to say goodbye to my grandmother (who is fully vaccinated thanks to me and my sisters, and who is moving to AZ) in St. George. Man. St. George. It's like a whole thing now. I never thought much of St. George but this last trip we kept looking at each other and saying....maybe we should....do this more often? Snow Canyon was particularly great with the two boys.
Then we drove the loooooong way home through Zion, on the 12, past Bryce, through Grand Staircase, through Boulder Mountain (BOULDER MOUNTAIN! Who knew??). Spent the night in Torrey and did the Hickman Bridge hike with the boys the next morning in Capitol Reef. (And, of course, had some pie in Fruita.) It was kind of ridiculously idyllic.
Also? ALSO. Grand Staircase Escalante??? Route 12?????? It's SO amazing and weird and beautiful. That was maybe in my top 5 best drives I've ever done.
Friday, March 26, 2021
Sunday, March 21, 2021
Sunday mornings are very therapeutic. One of us goes downstairs and sets out a breakfast for the boys, the other sets up PBS Kids video streaming. And then we get an entire morning - 6:00am - 9:00am to talk.
This morning I was hand-waving about how I can't quite pin it down but there's some impending mental breakdown or disturbance in the force or something that I see coming. Something's just starting to feel weird here. Was it all the stress and bursts of frustration and fear that came with this crazy COVID-y year? Is it this latent problem I have of feeling that I no longer am welcome in a culture that I grew up being told was the only place I'd ever belong? Was it because Harmon's has been completely out of Clausen's Dill Pickles for four weeks in a row? What was it?
And Paul, in his imminently Paul way (I don't know how to describe this), responded simply, "It's the 3-Year Wall."
"You know. The 3-Year Wall. We're coming up on the wall."
And then he goes on to point out that our entire adult lives (and pretty much my entire LIFE life) we've never lived in a place longer than 3 years. We've actually never lived at a single address for longer than 2.5 years before. And in July, we're going to cross that 3-year line here in Utah.
And so everything feels weird because everything in us is saying that it's time to leave and try something completely new. Time to start giving everything away and researching bike paths and "best restaurants" in wherever-we-go-next. Time to start the emotional distancing to spare us too much pain when we have to say goodbye. Time to go. But instead, we're....not. For the foreseeable future.
"Yeah, I feel it too. Even at work." Paul went on. "I keep thinking, 'Well, what now? What next?' And I think it's even stronger because of tenure coming up. I don't have a life template after that. It was always, 'Just make it to tenure.' but I didn't think about what to do after that. Not that it's all bad. It means I can do anything I want really. But it's strange. So much time and freedom with no obvious structure."
"Yeah! And!" I jumped in, "Like, my whole life template was basically to go to BYU, graduate/get married, and have kids. But now, we're not having any more kids. And so, what's the template for life...for...for I mean the majority of my life? The rest of my life??"
We thought about all this in silence for a while.
A very enthusiastic bird sang on our windowsill.
So! I said. We'll make a plan. AND here's what we need to do first: we need to figure out the distinct cultural regions of the United States...